29 Days!

Yesterday was the one month mark. I think the butterflies hit in full swing. I am so excited to be leaving, but I am realized even more the little things I know I'm going to miss. I'm trying to focus on the experiences I going to have, though that little missing it before I'm gone feeling still sticks sometimes.

In preparation for my departure, I went shopping yesterday for the things I know I'm going to need. I went without a written list. When I compared my purchases when I came home, I did pretty well. The only big things I forgot were a watch with an alarm, duct tape, and vitamins. Nothing too major seeing I still have a few weeks.

I was reading my Oswald Chambers devotional a few days ago and the quote below really stuck with me. I think I've read it every year and when I get back to it there is a whole new meaning uncovered.

If you debate for a second when God has spoken, it is all up. Never begin to say - "Well, I wonder if He did speak?" Be reckless immediately, fling it all out on Him. You do not know when His voice will come, but whenever the realization of God comes in the faintest way imaginable, recklessly abandon. It is only by abandon that you recognize Him. You will only realize His voice more clearly by recklessness.

I feel as though this is what this trip is for me. I believe that God said, "Go." I'm throwing it all out there in faith believing that while I am gone more of who I am will be revealed to me through His awesomeness and the expereince and reflection I will have. What will be of me when I return...I have no idea. I do know that I will grow.